A winding weekend

This weekend was an interesting one. Che and I had planned months ago to do a backpacking trip in the Ozarks. I watched the weather and simply had to say no. It was going to be cold and raining the whole weekend. I knew that I would struggle to find peace in that setting so I made the difficult choice to stay home on my own. Che planned to stick it out with our Sierra club friends anyway.

So I planned out the weekend as a self-care vacation and put my plans into action. I headed to the grocery store Friday evening and bought all of the makings for my favorite healthy meals that no one else enjoys but me – Eggplant Veggie Chili, Cabbage and Sausage and lots of spinach smoothies. I noticed as I walked through the store that an old sadness had returned. I felt a strange mixture of excited and lonely. I put my hand on my heart in the check-out line and took some deep breaths. I talked to my inners and just let it be.

As it turns out my weekend of solitude ended on Saturday morning. I woke to find Che at home. The cold had been too much and his sleeping bag arrangement didn’t work out like he planned. He was disappointed about missing the adventure but we were both thankful to have some free time to spend with just the two of us.

It ended up being such a nice weekend. We took time alone to finish projects around the house and also enjoyed time to shop and watch a movie together. We were able to connect without distraction. Oh how I savor those hour long conversations over a delicious meal and slow weekend mornings.

I also had the pleasure of meeting with Lisa Bain from Joy in the Cause

We met in the little Starbucks at 91st and Yale and even though the shop was hopping with customers I had the wonderful feeling of being centered in a bubble, just the two of us, sharing our stories and dreams with each other. It is rare that you meet someone so full of optimism and compassion. I don’t think it is an accident that our paths have crossed. One of the things she said in passing was a quote her mother used to say.

“What you see if what you’re looking for.”

What a simple way to describe the thoughts that have been swirling in my mind lately.

I am so very clear that life is what we make it. Some days that feels easier than others as we all know. When the wind is knocked out of you and you want to hide it can be difficult to feel grateful to simply be living. The more I stick with self care habits, the easier it is becoming to find equilibrium again though.

Today I am thankful for a weekend full of space and opportunity

I am thankful for a relationship that can ebb and flow with circumstance

I am thankful for new friends that inspire me

I am thankful for the upcoming holiday to visit with extended family and spend quality time with the boys.

I am thankful for breath.. for life.. for laughter and tickle fights.. for the energy that moves within us all.

I Love you my sweet friends


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When things fall apart

When your heart burns with sadness and fear is thumping in your gut. 

When your shakes give you away.

When happiness makes you sad

What do you do?

What is the next right step when anxiety and overwhelm is blinding you to the path ahead?

Breathe

Say I love you

Over

And

Over

And

Over

Until your heart feels it

Be there for yourself

Take as long as you need 

And just be with it all

Sometimes it's all you can do

Just be and love yourself

And maybe that will begin to open the door in a way that makes the world feel safe again. 

Audio book report

So I downloaded a new audible book last night. I have always loved Amy Poehler on SNL and Parks and Rec.

This morning I listened to the first part of her book on the morning commute. 

She's funny as usual but what I love most is her honest look at creativity. 

The key to creative success is to simply "do the thing" you want to do.

Talking about something is not the thing. The doing is the thing. The way you do the thing, is you just have to do the thing."

Oh I feel this these days. I've been teetering on burnout and trying to keep my spirit afloat through the shifting seasons and growing to do list. 

I know in the end there really is no safe ground where life feels awesome every single day. I do know that when I show up as I am with honesty and grace, things keep moving and growing like I want. Even on hard days there are bright moments and ridiculously funny moments. I'm thankful for that.

Here's to showing up as you and doing the best you can. 

Eliza Louise is here!

She arrived last night at 10:55 weighing 9 lbs and 5oz 20.5" long. 

She took her time getting here but everyone is healthy and happy today. 

Welcome to the world sweet girl. You are loved by so many and I can't wait to watc you grow and learn.

Slow down little camper

Last night I was in a flurry cleaning up my art space. Tidying here and there and getting things just right. Roland came in and asked if we could read together. I so wanted to honor his request but I also really wanted to finish what I was doing. “Five minutes” I said and went back to cleaning. I felt the tug, the rush to quickly get it done and the struggle to stop and join the boys on the couch to read. As I sat there, I felt my energy as chaotic and frenzied. And then I picked up my book and read this passage. 

“So many of us try to fill every second with noise or clutter or thoughts that clamor to be spoken even before we have finished our last sentence or before we have really listened to the one speaking to us.

When you slow down enough to regularly experience this flow, you will find that serendipitous moments begin to happen more often, and your intuition leads you to the people and places you need to connect with.

It’s wonderful to dream big but it’s also easy to get ahead of ourselves. Creative people are often buzzing with ideas, jumping ahead of themselves with excitement over an epiphany, only to wish later that they had slowed down a little, thought thrings through or waited for the right opportunity to let their idea bloom.

Sometimes our brilliant ideas are like little rough stones and we need to polish them for a while to see the fiery opal inside.

Patience, grasshopper, patience. I feel your creative yearnings. I feel them in my heart. 

Cultivate the stillness within and know that it’s all possible.”

 Tracy Verdugo Paint Mojo

 

Well that was exactly what I needed to hear. Life is so full of possibility and I find myself rushing from one thing to another even when I don’t need to be. Today I have practiced slowing down. Even as I type these words, I am choosing to move my fingers slower and be more conscious with my words. It feels better (and I make less mistakes. Nice!) 

Rushing is an old pattern that adds to anxiety and stress.

I am noticing that the slower pace feels REALLY GOOD in my body and my spirit.

I even stopped on my lunch run to notice the sway grass blowing in the downtown wind. It was a beautiful calming moment that I would have normally run right by.

I also see the gift in my ability to multi-task and get things done quickly. The balance is saving that ability for the true emergencies!

I love how the universe swoops in sometimes and points you to just the right message. Thank you Tracy for writing such a lovely book and thank you Roland for asking to sit by me and read. It’s one of my favorite things to do with you.

Let loose the fierce color of change

This morning as I drove the boys to school I noticed the first fall leaf suctioned to my car window. 

Something about it struck me and I stopped for a moment to pull over to take a picture.

I was struck by the beauty of letting go. The fierce burst of color before the leaves take their plunge to the ground. Fall does this me. I can feel an earthquake of energy shifting inside, desperately trying to let loose what no longer serves me.

The old record plays…

Here we go again, you moody girl. When will you ever find peace and calm?

And now a new tune plays…

Let it flow

Shake it loose

Breathe and observe

Watch the cycle and change it

one small terrifying step at a time

Smile and remember you are pure sunshine

Around Here - Fall Edition

Have you felt the chill in the air or noticed the subtle yellow tinge to the leaves these days? Summer is gone and fall is upon us. The shifting always causes me to reflect and set new plans for the coming season. The past few months have been full of celebration, growth and creativity. That makes me happy. Here's what we've been up to.

Che and I journeyed to New Mexico to backpack at the Wild Rivers Recreation Area of the Rio Grande Del Norte National Monument with the Sierra Club from OKC. We took our time and split up the drive, enjoying the scenery and stopping as we pleased. We made amazing friends that we hope to see again on future trips and took in the restorative beauty of mother nature. We camped at the top of the gorge for two nights and then along the Rio Grande river for two nights. We got absolutely filthy, absorbed the constant scent of pinion trees and sage, hiked about 15 miles (including a 1,000 foot climb up and down the gorge), laughed till our belly's hurt, found petroglyphs, learned how to cook meals with a tiny stove and metal bowl, learned about nature (did you know Ponderosa Pine trees smell like vanilla?), and yes I may have done some yoga where two rivers meet, that's kind of awesome! It was an incredible trip and I will never forget how amazing that hotel shower felt after 5 days in the wilderness.

On our way to Wild Rivers we stopped in Taos and visited the Earthship Biotecture Headquarters. We were even able to go inside some of these incredible structures. I fell in love. Building one of these technologically and environmentally progressive homes is now on my bucket list.

At home we have been doing a lot of celebrating!

Dylan and Hayden both have birthdays in September. Dylan is now 15 and Hayden 9.

Hayden and Dylan are both proud new owners of wheeled goodies. A new skateboard for Dylan and a sweet Schwinn scooter for Hayden. I love that the weather is perfect right now for getting out and enjoying them.

Che's granddaughter turned 6 and we've had two showers for the coming grand babies.

I am loving this new grandparent role. These girls are adorable and fun and I soak up every chance I get to spend time with them.

Roland has joined Boy Scouts! He went on his first campout last weekend and is learning so much about responsibility. I am thankful he has found an activity he can enjoy with his friends that has so many great benefits. There is even a chance he could travel to Hawaii next summer with his troop. Awesome!

Last week I received news that my step-brother passed on to the other side. I have not seen him in years and knew his life was challenging to say the least. Hearing of his death, brought me great sadness and allowed me to see into my own dark places. I am thankful for the therapy I have done over the years to learn how to love those heavy places inside of myself. I chose to paint out some of those feelings onto canvas. Once I finished I felt a peace and calm that I had not experienced in a few days. I wish my step-brother peace on his journey and pray that his soul can find rest. 

Once the painting flood gates opened, I couldn't turn them off. I finished a piece that I've been working on for a few months and my very dear friend is going to keep it safe for me over her fireplace. What an honor.

A few weeks ago I met up with some friends and set a new personal record at the See Jane Run 5k in Wichita. This the the first 5k I've done in under 30 minutes and I came in first in my age division. What??? I won a "run happy" sports bottle and socks. I wear them proudly.

I have rekindled my love for Yoga and started a home practice using Tara Stiles stralayoga videos. They are all about FEELING GOOD while you move; Opening and saying yes.

I have been Reading Paint Mojo by Tracy Verdugo and just finished The Signature of All Things by Elizabeth Gilbert. I found a free trial of Audible and started listening to Signature on my runs. I love it. I found myself eager to get out on the trail so I could enjoy the next part of the story - A double win.

This month I also said goodbye to the little condo that we called home after the divorce. I am thankful for that space and for the lessons learned in owning it. 

Poppy's Playhouse is rockin' along. I have two upcoming terrarium potting parties (one at the Retro Den in October - YES!) and a Dream catcher class in the works. I decided to go BIG with the dream catcher and used a hula hoop as the outer ring. Oh this is fun!

Jamestown Revival is a new to me band I found on Spotify. They are a blues/folk mix and I'm loving them. Check them out!

I want to remember

I want to remember…

The way you lay your hand on me as we sleep and how warm and loving it feels

The way I lay my hands on each boy as I wake them in the morning. Light rubs against their warm skin to coax them into the day.

“Good morning sweetie. Time to rise and shine. Did you sleep well last night? I love you”

“Good morning my stepmom” and the little trot you do as you walk in the kitchen. The way you carefully lay your books and doll on the table next to the ipad and slowly scroll through youtube videos about Disney princesses as you s l o w l y eat your oatmeal and say “this is really good”.

Dylan sitting on the lawn tractor, Hayden riding in big circles on the scooter and Roland practicing his skateboard flip while Tesla and Dr. Fuzzle get to know each other in the garage.

The big red daddy cardinal and the two mama cardinals that fight over the bird feeder. The smell of summer and watching the first leaves fall onto the ground, twirling and sailing like feathers in the sky.

Hiking gear laid out for weeks in our bedroom as we pack and repack. Excitement with each small amazon box that comes in bringing new supplies for the trip. Can that box really hold an entire bed mat? Yes, yes it can.

The beginning of technology that will someday be thought of us as normal. Devices that can hang off my pack and soak up the suns energy to charge my only method of communication in the wilderness.

Dreaming of backpacking trips, big birthday trips, home plans, somedays and somewheres

Taking deep breaths and smiling at what I am surrounded by today

Self help books, inspirational memes, and audio teachings on how to be happy

The pain in my soul that sometimes feels impenetrable. Sitting on the couch in the dark listening to my breath and holding that scared girl inside of me while she crys.

Hearing the truth in the midst of the hurt. You are pure sunshine, let those clouds roll on by.

The feel of a paintbrush swirling between my fingers while my favorite songs play on spotify

The joy and rush of a new album that brings peace and joy

Kitty causing a ruckus every morning at 5am.. scratching to get in or out. The flush of heat as I rise to deal with it.

Pink finding its way into our home as we prepare for two baby girls. Alexandra Marie and Eliza Louise. How I have to keep their names in a notepad in my phone because my mind won’t remember the spellings.

Our yin/yang food on the checkout line at Walmart each Sunday evening. Whole nutritious foods for me and sweet/savory snacks for them. The tension and laughter as we try to meld the two.

Cast iron pans that grow thicker with seasoning each week and the way I turn up my nose when I have to scrub the eggs out.

Saturday mornings when we divide and conquer the cleaning tasks. Boys on the bathroom and vacuuming. Timmy on his room. Dylan in the game room. Che and I with the rest. Knock it out in an hour and then go play.

The overwhelm that builds each time we mow the yard. The internal work to find appreciation for such a hard task.

The little moments of joy that slip in and take me by surprise. The awareness of the truth that I sometimes don’t want to let them in.

Making new friends and sharing my silliness with them. Getting a group of strangers to make the “omg it’s a bear face” with me on our first hike. Making a mental note to remember that I can be fun.

Tender conversations about trust and love and commitment. Learning to tell the truth and take responsibility. The razor edge feelings in relationships.

Truth. Awareness. Owning my weak spots with love instead of judgment. 

Afloat at sea with my faith to guide me. Humbled fear and Courage to keep going. A constant fire alight in my soul searching for steady peace. 

Checking in on my word of the year

At the beginning of the year I set an intention to take full responsibility for my life. I chose CONSCIOUS COMITTMENT as my focus for 2014.

No big deal. Right?

I have to laugh at the thought.

But truly that commitment shifted my life in a super positive direction.

And I can honestly say I have worked every single day to make it happen

(even the dark, depressed, lazy, didn’t get shit done days)

Because even on those days, I learned something about myself and the people I love around me.

I learned how absolutely abundant my life is (if I open my eyes and look for it!)

I learned that when I fall I can totally get back up again.

I looked back through my commitments that I posted here in January and tears filled my eyes. Many of them I had forgotten but I had been living. Wow!

Like being grateful and seeing opportunities no matter what my outer circumstances look like. This way of being is a daily part of my life.

Like honesty in communication. Speaking the truth and allowing others to do the same without judgment. This is so incredibly hard. But it is life changing. The release of energy (anxiety) that I feel from simply being honest is a gift. I am grateful for the times when I was too scared to tell the truth and my friends and family called me on it. I saw how much pain was caused by withholding my truth. It was an incredible lesson.

This year I have learned how to STAY. I am not perfect, but deep inside I have the skills. I always have. But now that I have experienced that deep feeling of peace from breathing through a really hard moment, the ability will never leave me. I practice this daily too. When I run, in difficult relationship moments, when I am tired and hormonal and just want to take a nap and my child needs me, I practice staying. I stay with myself and love the part that just wants to run. And then we have the strength to STAY with others.

I look back at all of this with gratitude and joy. I am humbled by the power of commitment.

Che and I have started something that requires us to each look at our unconscious comittments and set new ones. I am still processing what that looks like for me, but I will be making them concrete soon. 

Without the connection to divine peace none of this would be possible. Today I joined over 100,000 souls online to meditate for world peace and felt that overwhelming peace flood through every cell of my body. What a gift!

I have no idea how to wrap this up except to say, Hell Yes!

Much Love to anyone who finds their way here.

I wish you peace

I wish you joy

I wish you harmony

I wish you love

XO,

Angie

365 days

365 days ago I set out on a journey to document gratitude.

I made a commitment to jot down the little moments in each day that filled my heart with thanks. I used the Day One app to record these moments along with a picture for each day.

Today I noticed it has been a year.

And my oh my WHAT A YEAR IT HAS BEEN!

There were days I had to dig so deep to find something to write.

And that I believe is the gift of sticking with this commitment.

I learned that every single day is a gift.

Really

Even on days where I felt like my whole world had been turned upside down, there were moments of love and always always always OPPORTUNITIES to grow.

Looking through these images I want to hug that girl looking back at me. Thank her for never giving up and CHOOSING to take the path of love and courageous risks.

I see her strength.
I see her passion.
I see her joy.
I see her play.
I see her fierce love.

Most of all

I see the gifts surrounding her and the amazing life she gets to live.

The seasons come and go along with the triumphs and failures. I am thankful for the chance to live them all with love.

Blessings

"beware of looking for goals: look for a way of life. Decide how you want to live and then see what you can do to make a living WITHIN that way of life." Hunter S. Thompson

This morning I experienced a moment so kind and gentle in my kitchen. A deep sadness had swelled in my chest. Tears began to form in my lower lids and I had no idea why. 

A deep breath and a new choice. Instead of digging for the reason or berating myself, I spoke the truth to Che and allowed myself to cry.

He held me gently and said I love you.

A few moments later Timmy came in to say good morning and get breakfast. His beautiful spirit shining like always. He looked at Che and said "I love you" and they shared a hug. He then looked at me and said " and I love you, my stepmom" (a new fascination for his vocabulary) 

My heart swelled and I gave him a hug. He gently touched my hair and said again "I love you, my stepmom".

These moments are common in our home. Timmy has a way of bringing us all back to the things that really matter in life. 

In all of my striving and desiring to live a beautiful life, I realize I am already living one. Yes I have dreams of changing my work into my passion. But savoring moments like this morning, gives me strength to take that journey. 

Thank you Che and Timmy for loving me so fiercely and making my life so sweet. 

I love you both, madly. 

Samprada

“And so he told me his secret formula for happiness. Part one of the two part plan was that I should just get on with ordinary life, living it day by day, like anyone else. But then came part two of Dad's plan. He told me to live every day again almost exactly the same. The first time with all the tensions and worries that stop us noticing how sweet the world can be, BUT THE SECOND TIME NOTICING. And in the end I think I've learned the final lesson from my travels in time; and I've even gone one step further than my father did: The truth is I now don't travel back at all, not even for the day, I just try to live every day as if I've deliberately come back to this one day, to enjoy it, as if it was the full final day of my extraordinary, ordinary life."

 About Time

 

Last night we watched About Time. Such a great movie. I love time travel stories. Mix it with the search for joy and  love and I’m in.

This morning I remembered writing “Make time to Play” in my day planner a few months ago and how foreign a concept that was. I remember the struggle as week after week I would see that “goal” come and go and feel frustrated that I was missing the point.

This movie so beautifully portrayed what I had been missing. The joy is in surrender. Finding peace with what has been, what is and what is to come. Looking each other in the eye (especially on hard days) and celebrating the life force that flows in our bodies.

I have a dear friend who is deep in struggle. Today as she shared her grief with me I stopped and hugged her. I think it’s the first time we’ve ever really hugged. I could tell it startled her but then she relaxed and let that love in. I am thankful for the reminder to let go of the every day patterns and follow my heart.

I feel a little extra spring in my step today; an awakened boldness and joy. Thank you inspiration for finding your way to me once again. 

What's Working

Life isn’t always easy. All of the striving and change has caught up with me. My eyes are open now to my patterns and I’m learning to take responsibility for them like I have never done before.

Most of the time I can meditate and stay curious about the surges of anger and grief. Other times, I get sucked in and fall into the dark night of despair and shame.

Last night was one of those nights. I am thankful for my partner and love who stayed by my side and shared his strength with me. I allowed his love in and clung to it to find buoyancy on the dark wave. Like a rope tied around my waist, his love anchored me as I walked into the darkness of my heart. The part that wants to give up and run away.

This morning my spirit feels like the lake the day after fourth of July. Choppy and full of debris. But there is a clearing too. The wakes are pushing the debris to the edges. Things are clear enough now to listen to that healthy part that is so wise and kind. I heard her gentle reminder to focus on WHAT IS WORKING in my life.

So today I’m sharing that list here. To remind me and to give hope to you.

What is working?

Grace and love from my life partner

He stays by my side and shows me grace like I’ve never known.

My body is healthy. I feel strong (especially when I run)

A friend I haven’t spoken to in months randomly sent me a picture of a poppy last night and told me it reminded him of me.

Watching the pages come out of the printer after so many obstacles.

Standing in my bedroom door and feeling the warm morning breeze.

The birds singing and the leaves rustling.

Hot coffee and a granola bar

Soothing touch from my lover. Being held and sustained by his heartbeat in my ear.

Watching the boys bond and mature every single day.

Notes of wisdom on facebook and blogs. My news feed has become a place of grace and a constant reminder to take responsibility for my life.

Building friendships through honesty and mutual support.

Hiking through thousands of heart rocks days before a dark night of the soul. Noticing how many hearts found their way to me in nature last week through my instagram feed. Something made them show up in a BIG way. Something is trying to get my attention.

My physical needs are met. I am well fed, have a roof over my head and a job that provides

My emotional needs are met if I take responsibility, ask for help and allow the support.

The new business venture is in progress. The website is almost done and several events are lined up and ready to go. I have come so far in such a short amount of time.

A new album on spotify that inspires and uplifts me, cracking open my hard armor and adding some wiggle to my morning.

A courageous survivor’s heart that refuses to give up

Freedom in every moment to create the life I want to live

When I forget that fact, a team of support to remind me

Around Here - June edition

Here's what's happening in our little world...

Celebrating: Yesterday we celebrated Father’s Day. I made yummy breakfast burritos with home fries and we enjoyed a family breakfast around the table. I am happy that the boys were able to celebrate at both of their homes yesterday. We have recently changed our custody schedule, so the boys were able to be with their dad in the afternoon and evening.

Hiking: We enjoyed a beautiful hike at Turkey Mountain Saturday afternoon. All of the rain lately has made everything so green! The boys and I did the 1.5 mile hike and I noticed with gratitude the difference in both boys ability. We found a turtle, several hawks and butterflies and a snake on the trail. Good times!

Playing – ALL of the boys in my home have taken up wheeled sports. Dylan, che and Ro spent most evenings skating on the neighborhood streets. And I often find Hayden riding in circles in the garage on his scooter. His latest trick involves big circles with only one hand and foot – FIVE times in a row! Hayden also learned to ride his bike on his own a few weeks ago. I love how we are all getting outside and playing.

Creating – I am deep in website building for Poppy’s Playhouse. Lots of deep breaths and letting go as well. Building this business from scratch is opening up all kinds of opportunities to work on my limiting beliefs. I am so thankful to have the opportunity to learn this stuff and play while I’m doing it. The first party was a blast and I'm looking forward to so many more.

Reading - Conscious Loving is still my book of choice these days. I take it in like bites of cheesecake – rich stuff that deserves to be savored. And slowly but surely I am putting into practice the advice that it offers and seeing rich results.

Practicing – Love everyone and Tell the Truth – this way of being is a direct result of the behaviors I’m practicing from Conscious Loving. It sounds so simple but requires a tremendous amount of vulnerability, courage and TRUST. It is changing my life in the best way possible.

Watching - 22 Jump Street – we took in this movie last night with che and his boys. It is so wrong and hilarious in that really ridiculous and crude way. But I was doubled over laughing and that is always always an awesome thing!

Listening - She & Him – volume one – Che found this album awhile back and I love it. We listen to it often when we work in the art room together.

Eating – quinoa – trying lots of different recipes with it. I’m the only one in the house that likes it, but that’s perfectly fine with me. Just means I don’t have to share.

Buying – a riding mower – I really need a bubba gump hat and a plaid shirt to go with it.

Enjoying – drives on the back road with the windows down and the music up. Love that summer breeze in my hair and holding my hand out the window. Hell yes to Summer!

Training – it is Tulsa Run time again. Courtney and I have started our almost daily lunch runs. I can’t decide if we are providing therapy for our hearts or our bodies. But I sure love that hour of sunshine each day.

Thanks for catching up with me friends. Much love to you!

Summer Bucket List

We sat down together last week after dinner and made our summer bucket list.

This was the first time we’ve done this together as one family.

I think Dylan was a little hesitant at first but once we started talking and laughing everyone pitched in with ideas.

I am sure most of these will happen when we do our staycation in late July, but I’m hoping to sprinkle a few activities each weekend as well.

Our List:

Bowling

Hot Tub

Lots of Projected Movies on the House

Video Game Marathon

Aquarium

Warp Slide to an Alternate Universe – aka – build a waterslide in the backyard

Build a Castle in Tim’s Room

Zoo to see the LionElephantZebraDoodle – Yes!

Movie Marathon Day

Root Beer Floats

Camp Out in the Wildnerness

Homemade Peach Ice Cream

Cherry Chip Cake for my birthday

And Dylan’s choice – sky dive with a tan and pink hair! (love it)

Cheers to summer and sun and fun!

Poppy's Playhouse

Remember when I talked about that big project I’m birthing into my life?

Well it’s time to spill the beans on what I’ve been up to.

A while back I had an aha inspirational moment.

Walking through a local antique and craft market, I thought “I could do that” as I gazed at some cool handmade jewelry made from old spoons and forks.

I have had this thought many times as I browsed pinterest or stood in awe at an art gallery.

But this time it stuck with me in a new way.

I realized that many people feel this way and have a longing to make stuff just like I do.

And when I put that together with my deep deep longing for connection, a small business idea was born.

A community “I can make that too” party center and event biz

I have seen this idea played out at places like Pinot’s Palette or Purple Glaze.

But my experience with those type of venues was honestly lacking in creativity.

I do not want to create what everyone else is creating.

Yes I want to be inspired by others, but I want to add my unique touch and flair to my creations.

I think other people feel the same way.

So I’m creating a space for people to come together to make stuff and play.

Creativity + Community

Yes!

And the best part is that this totally lines up with my skill set

Organized, budget conscious, creative, make it happen attitude and a loving heart that embraces strangers with open arms

I CAN’T WAIT

Seriously

It has been a LOT of work getting everything set up and going

And I’m choosing to start slow so that I can keep the rest of my life in balance and actually enjoy the process

Soon I will have a website with all of the info and events, but for now I am using facebook as the hub for parties.

Patience Angie Patience

The inner demons are having fun now that the first event is nearing (one week away!!!)

The new skill set I have learned over this past year of staying curious when emotions and panic rise is really helping.

My support system has been amazing too. Close friends, family and Che have encouraged me to go for this. Their support has meant so much, especially on those hard days of failed experiments and “who do I think I am to do this” thoughts.

I have big hopes for this project but I’m also not holding on too tight to the outcome.

It is a big experiment that I am ready to face with conscious commitment and joy

Wish me luck and I hope to see your smiling face at Poppy’s a Playhouse soon.