Falling Uphill

Each step up the mountain

Lift your knee

Plant your foot

Deep breath

Heave

Repeat

And just like that, there is no more mountain

Only sky and clouds

A racing heart and trembling legs

But peace

Always peace

Curious eyes

Scanning in the beauty

Peer over the conquered ledge

The peace tumbles to your toes and heat rises in your chest

“I have to go back down”

Panic

Going down means facing the journey with eyes wide open.

Certain death is no longer hidden behind your back

You must face it without blinders

Lower your knee

Plant your foot

Deep breath

Jump

Over and Over

And over again

Until the jolt of the jump becomes comfort in your body

And you find yourself skipping stones

With the same joy

You hurdled them with on the way up

Love is like that

We fall uphill with naïve eyes

Determined Confident Joyful

But enduring love

Can make it’s way back down the mountain without leaping off the edge

It is the slow repetition of seeing fully

And choosing to plant that foot again

To jump again

To make your way down the hill

Hand in hand

Until the Joy returns again